XXVI from the heart. thankyou and sorry. i love you.

ive been a self riotous cunt over the years. there are few that know me on a more personal level. and i know that there are alot of those people that i have let down.

people that have loved me and been hurt by my actions or lack of understanding.

there are a few who still. despite all of my downfalls still stand by my side. even after being completely taken for granted. 

people that even after the things ive done, have still believed that i was worth it and a good person at heart.

i love you so much for trying.

and i regret so much for not appreciating it as much as i should have.

im trying to turn my life around now.

i know it doesnt mean a thing at this time, but im doing it.

for one in particular that shattered everything clouding my head and a few others definitely.

i am the person you stuck by. i just lost sight alot over the years.

significant things have happened. a release finally.

i miss you. i miss how i was. ill be right again.

i know i need to prove it.

im so sorry

and most of all thank you.

these are the people that give me self worth.